December, already?

It’s been a crazy 3 and a half months (I know, you’re thinking, ‘I wouldn’t know, Taylor, you never update your dang blog or edit any of your vlogs so now you just have an endless heap of a hodge-podge of footage throughout the semester that is sporadic at best.’ Wait. Maybe that’s what I’m thinking, not you).

My thoughts, like my accumulated vlog footage, are sporadic. Jumbled. A crazy mess. And that’s probably why I haven’t really kept up with blogging. Everything has been a scrambled, endless flow of thoughts and reflections. There have been multiple times when I sat down to write a post, but when I began, struggled putting things into words. Even now as I’m writing, I’m wondering where I’m going with this. London has been a time of immense and constant learning. I swear I could write an endless amount of words on every single thing I’ve learned. And maybe I will get there, eventually. But for now, I’ll just jot down a few.

(Ten more) things living in London has taught me:

  1. Life exists outside of Southern California. Really, it does. Before this year, I had never really considered life outside of the South Bay. Not saying I’m going to all the sudden flee the country, but at least now I’m open to the possibilities.
  2. SoCal’s Christmas game is weeeaakk. When it’s actually cold outside and you’ve watched the trees lose their leaves, it actually feels like Christmas. Well, that and London goes all out with the Christmas decorations and Christmas themed things. It’s amazing.
  3. Tea is not a drink, it’s a way of life. That sounds a bit dramatic, but it’s true. It’s not like the Brits sit around drinking tea all day because it’s magically more delicious than any other drink, it’s just a part of their culture. But I will say, it always tastes better when they make it than when I do.
  4. Americans are comparatively immature. I always struggled to grasp the fact that I was older than every single person I lived with, and just about everyone I met at school. I’m almost four years older than some of them – FOUR years! They just seem a lot more ready for life than we do. And at church, I can’t tell you how many youth and young adults I saw serving and in leadership positions, and I mean really serving from a place of passion for God. It’s incredible.
  5. British English is kind of the best. American English is so ugly and harsh. I’m being serious when I say I fought hard not to start using British spelling. There’s something charming about words like ‘realise’ and ‘colour’ (and using single inverted commas ‘ ‘ instead of speech marks ” “).
  6. It’s okay to do things alone. Go shopping, go to eat, explore, learn a lot about yourself when you’re by yourself in a sea of people.
  7. But, there’s only so much I can do alone. Being by yourself is fun for a little while, but now more than ever, I realize that we were created to be in community. We were never intended to do life completely alone, and my heart breaks for those who feel that’s what they’re doing.
  8. I needed a break. Over the past couple of years, I have let myself become extremely busy. And I needed a break. This year has been one of the best of my life, but it’s been non-stop. I had to learn that it’s okay to breathe, and it’s okay to not have something to do or somewhere to be every second.
  9. Be your own person. Be you. When it feels like you have a giant 4-month countdown hanging over your head every day, you realize that you really have to decide how you want to spend your time. My friends and I have a lot of common interests, but we are all our own people, and it’s okay to want to do different things. Do those things.
  10. I am extremely broken and flawed. There were times that I felt unloving, unlovable, impatient, judgmental, and selfish. There were times that I asked God to use me and work through me, then didn’t let Him. There were times that I realized that my faith is small. And there were times where I almost let these things get the best of me. But I had to remind myself that God’s grace is sufficient, and His power is made perfect in my weakness (2 Corinthians 12:9).

I promise, I will continue to update this as I process through my thoughts (I already have two drafts started). And those vlogs. They will come. Haha. Thanks for sticking with me!